Letting Go, Not my poem but is How I am feeling right now

LETTING GO TAKES LOVE
To let go does not mean to stop caring,
   it means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off,
   it's the realization I can't control another.
To let go is not to enable,
   but allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means
   the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another,
   it's to make the most of myself.
To let go is not to care for,
   but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
   but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
   but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
   but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To let go is not to be protective,
   it's to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
   but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue,
   but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
   but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody,
   but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
   but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more
       and
To let go and to let God, is to find peace !

BEACH

One of my favorite places to be is the beach, since I have moved back to California I have been to the beach 10 times in a year, can we say "ADDICTION"
I love taking Kalala there because it is such a peaceful and calming place. To listen to the waves rushing in and leaving, almost hypnotic

Gone

I am not sure when I wrote this one

I see you smile & I am at peace

But the peace is short lived

I turn away & you are gone

The days pass much more quickly

Time flies by without notice

I only have time to blink and then you are gone

Sleep is restless yet,

My dreams always keep you close

I wake in the morn & you are gone

If time was kind

You would be mine for eternity

It is not and you are gone!

SOLDIER

Wind blowing through the trees

On a cold moonless night

A woman peeps through the window

Not knowing what she'll find

Lights coming toward the house

Her heart skips a single beat

A soldier at the door begins to speak

Sad, tragic news he's come to bear

He tells of a man who fought bravely by his side

And of a country's unfortunate loss

He hands her the medals

Along with a letter folded tight

Trembling with fear she hesitates the choice

She slowly takes the gifts

Tears streaming down her face

Air is scarce

He thanks her kindly 

For the man she raised

Then leaves in haste to hide his own pain

The letter is so simple

Mom I'll love you till the end

I am sorry for the pain I caused

The choice was right for me

Please understand my decision

And always remember 

I loved you till the end

I wrote this poem 7/15/05, I was working for a collection agency at the time. It came to me while I was on a phone call. I have attempted to write poetry since but have not done a  very good job, I stop before I start.

POEM

Beauty in her eyes
Smile to melt away frustration
Hugs to calm a worried heart
Kisses to show her unconditional LOVE
Laughter to fill the air with JOY
Kalala my daughter I love you

All there is is UP

Water

These are pictures that have not been modified in anyway.
They were taken 2 years ago when Laki and I were in Cali visiting family before Lala was born.
I love the ocean
If I could be reborn as anything it would be a dolphin. They get to live their lives in the ocean, eat sushi, and they get to fly!